i have been at home and my sisters house reading and not really doing much. my break of "intellectual" reading failed and i am now reading Brisinger b/c i never finished the series. everything is making me cry. i dont know why. maybe i just have let out any real emotions for a while. my house isnt as bad as i make it but at times its testing. i have decided to read through the old testament this year.
i am reading a book about being a good woman. i don't know. i have issues with that. don't we all. this is my year resolution. I want to see myself as God sees me. and to be confident in my own skin. I know that there is so much more that God wants me to experience his love for me, the truly unique expression of himself that i am. it going to be hard. i need to make sure i journal more. i need to take the time to solidly get the thoughts out of my head and concrete... yep yep
i am also confused about boys. i don't ... yeah. i need to make sure that i am not pursuing them to gain identity. i need to make sure that my ideals and ideas are accurate representations not only of who boys/people/i are/am but of who they are changing into and who they are meant to become. this is confusing to say the least. i dont see myself with a boyfriend anytime soon but.... i need to at least try to figure this crazy thing out... yep yep
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