Someday...

*Some old Stuff...*
A blank stare for the tragic life. She'd received them before but never had they hurt so bad. She finally let someone in , and in the breath of a moment they were gone. Taken from her by choice. She wasn't loveable. She wasn't worthy. She was a waste
They gave her looks of sympathy but they never know how much more it kills her to be the object of such stares. She cries in the dark to keep a strieght face in the light. When will they know her? Will they ever understand her pain. No, they can't. For they are not her, and there is no way for anyone to understand. Let them stare, she cries. She'll take it like everything else. One day it will make her stronger, though today is not that day.
When looking back she wonders if she ever saw it coming. Of course she didn't, she lies to herself. He was just weird and like that. But deep down she knows she did. She saw his eyes wander and his mouth fumble when he said her name. But she ignored it.
"He's busy and got too much on his mind for me to hold him accountable for such innocent mistakes" she lies. But to her it's truth. Or it was. Now it seems like a dream, a nightmare. Would she ever love again? Would life ever choose her to be happy again?
She waits and prays for the future to come. And believes that though they stare, she will be stronger.
Someday…
Tuesday, September 18, 2007